the more you say it…

February 25, 2009 at 3:16 pm (Uncategorized)

the easier it gets! after making a life altering decision to leave my business and be a mostly stay at home mom; the more i talk about it to various friends & family, the easier it gets. since the change has become public, i’ve had one job interview and been approached about another possible part time gig. regardless of how mixed i feel about the whole thing, it has been nice to actually do nothing! i have worked non-stop for the last four years, so actually doing nothing is strange. i still have moments of guilt when i sleep in or take a nap, but they are fleeting.


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things they are a changin’

February 20, 2009 at 11:07 pm (Uncategorized)

so…i’ve started to make some changes public! i’m leaving the business i started four years ago. walking away and leaving it in the very capable hands of my business partner. i am burnt out and exhausted after four years of working non-stop without a steady (if ever) paycheck!  my partner decided that she wanted to take things over and so we are working on putting everything in order.

while i admit to a certain amount of depression over my decision to leave; its also a bit of a relief…and a lot less stress.  i can say without a doubt that my family is more than happy for this change to be taking place.  for the first time in my married life (almost 21 years) i am mostly a ‘housewife’!  after about three weeks of being at home i am having problems staying motivated.  i mostly want to sleep and surf the web, read books and that’s about it.

at this point…i’ve begun telling friends and family, but next week the merde will hit the fan and become more public.  i don’t want to blow it all out of proportion and say the world will be rocked by this announcement, but i think quite a few people will be shocked and surprised. where does the public persona end and the ‘real’ person begin?  i’ve been the public persona for so long i don’t know if i can be the ‘person’?

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vacation! ahh!

February 17, 2009 at 2:58 am (Uncategorized)

almost home from a weeks vacation in sunny florida with my hubby and darling angel, riley. we drove to orlando along with my sis and two of her gorgeous children. the resort was fantastic, the pool wonderful and relaxing. we did visit disney for one day; for what i hope is the one and only time.  it was great relaxing and not having much of an agenda!  i got to read some books, stay up late, sleep in and otherwise unwind.

i don’t know that i came to any conclusions about ‘what i want to be when i grow up’…but it was nice to not have to make any decsions beyond the pool or shopping. now that the trip is almost over (we will drive from chicago to des moines tomorrow) its time to make some ‘to do’ lists and make some plans.

i’ll let you know in the next few days whats on the agenda!

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Hello world!

February 12, 2009 at 12:35 am (Uncategorized)

in less than a month i will be forty. the date has been fast approaching for what seems like forever!  when i turned thirty it was kind of traumatic; but more in a numeric, i’m t-h-i-r-i-t-y….kind of way. i was married, had a career, traveled a ton and otherwise was doing fantastic. but f-o-r-t-y is really hitting me hard only a decade later.  the older i get the quicker time seems to fly. i’m still married, don’t really have much of a career, became a mom, tried my hand at some entrepenurial efforts; but still don’t know what i want to be when i grow up! i hope this blog will help me explore some of these issues as i turn forty!

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